Thursday, January 22, 2015


when I think of a fleece I have to admit my first thought is a jacket. a warm toasty 'north face' jacket. but that isn't the fleece I am feeling today. in fact, I don't feel very warm at all.
I feel kinda - well - maybe frozen ?

almost as if I am in a crisis of what fleece to wear today -

I just read about prayer fleeces. and it would be great if it was just a warm blanket that you put over yourself while you were praying to keep warm. but that isn't it.

today, for me, I feel like I am a prayer fleece.

the bible talks of Gideon placing a fleece on the threshing floor and if God does something to it, then the prayer was answered or you did what you were praying for - it was a sign of answered prayer.

I am laying things down on the threshing floor today - and I have no idea.  I need answers or direction or repentance or all of it because I am just not sure what is next or how to get from here to there. I can see it - I can feel it. I just don't know how to get it. I need a sign or a word or something.

knowing that we do not chase signs, but choose God - there are times when our prayer needs to turn into a fleece -

like when we felt to change the front room of City Gate into a prayer café, we through out a fleece sharing the dream. what happened is that people started donating tables for the café and the vision is taking off. so we weren't chasing signs, but we needed to act on the vision in a way that confirmed an answer ? does that make sense ?

so today in praying I was asking or telling God, I don't even know what to fleece - or I would put it out there - I told Him I felt like I was the fleece - throwing myself out there on the floor -
and in doing that seeking Him, not a sign, not a dream but seeking Him as to what I am to do or give or be

sometimes we use a fleece the wrong way - to get an answer changed.  if God has already given you a revelation - don't try to fleece your way out of it. that is not going to end well for you.

check your motives and make sure they aren't selfish - wanting fleshly desires

accept the answer you receive and don't question it - meaning if God has already told you, and you are still trying to get a different answer because your flesh wants something else

George Meuller once said that we are to work really hard at what God has called us to, but do not trust in our work, trust in God. to pray like it depends on God but work like it depends on you.

so today in my fleece crisis - I am asking - what haven't I been working at that I should, what have you called me to that I am not doing - where am I trusting in the outcome and not in Him -

I am my own fleece

Saturday, January 17, 2015

I'm back !

Hey my friends I have missed you -
I was in a season where I needed to lay down writing to just be with my Father God -
I have been studying and learning many things, and feeling stretched and pulled, all in a good way for this new year.
I guess I took a little vacation over the end of 2014
But I clearly heard God tell me that it is time to step out -
What was hidden and silent will now be seen and heard -                              
it's a year of releasing the things I (God) have spoken to you -
vision will now be released to be accomplished -
new vision is coming -
where there was substitution there will be transformation
it's time to step out, act, speak and declare-
vacation is over -

I think we all get in a little slump now and then. We get comfortable with our daily lives and then all of a sudden we realize we have been going about our daily lives with out prayer, reading our bible or even spending a moment with Jesus.

We find ourselves finding joy in substitutes things, people and places, and now being filled with the joy of the Lord which transforms us.

How can you tell ?

It that person, place or thing is removed - do you still have joy ? Priscilla Shirer says it like this in her book "Life Interrupted" : "A good way to determine this is to see how you  respond to a divine intervention, especially one that costs you something you don't want to part with (which many of them do) Will you go with God wherever he is calling you ?

One choice holds joy, transformation and the promises and protection of God - the other- not so much.

So as with everything in this journey - you always get to choose
your way or the 'higher way'

I know this - vacation is over

blessings my friends and I would love to hear from you!